The TL;DR CR Meme

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THE TL;DR CR MEME

It's function rambunction let me show you the rules:

1. Post a top level with your character.
2. Others post with their characters under your top level
3. You go on and on about those two characters CR.
4. Post with your character, get the same.

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Re: Sollux Captor // Hamsteak

[psionichax0r]

Sollux's current feelings on Lilith are complicated and likely to change quickly as the event draws to a close. on the one hand, she did apologize for killing him. yes i know this seems ridiculous to say, but when you have the amount of self worth sollux does (ie non-existent) you really feel like you can't blame people for murdering you. actually, so far he doesn't really think what kyouko or lilith did is actually wrong. murder on alternia is a thing that happens! just because he thinks its a shitty thing to do doesn't change that. sollux has probably had to throw a troll or two around on alternia and he's friends with people who have killed other trolls so he doesn't find murder inherently repulsive or immoral.

however, that being said he does not like dying. it is a thing that happens, especially to him, but it is scary and usually painful, and also when he is dead he can't do anything, and that sucks. admittedly, he usually feels pretty f-ing useless here so that might not be a huge change for normal, but sollux's self worth is so low that he literally only values himself in how useful he is to other people, so being dead basically is depriving him or being of use to people. i'm not wording this well, but basically if he's dead bad things can happen to the people he loves, and if the people he loves get hurt it means he specifically has failed and doesn't deserve nice things.

so, when it comes to lilith, although he thinks she's probably a lot scarier than he first realized he will likely forgive her at some point. sollux knows what desperation is, and he knows what he would do to protect the people close to him. honestly, if he didn't think the people he loved back on alternia were all dead anyway he might be participating in this event a lot more seriously. however, the things he loved back home are all gone. his planet and his species were destroyed. the only thing he has left that he values are the friendships he's made here. madoka is a big one, ryouko is another. basically what i'm saying is if it were their lives on the line you can bet he'd be doing whatever it took to help them out.

so he understands lilith, he understands what she's doing too. she doesn't understand why she's so desperate, and he definitely doesn't understand he totally casual attitude to the whole thing, but he gets the why of it all. combine that with his own lack of caring about the morality of murder and it makes sense that he would eventually forgive lilith at some point. or at least, it does to me. that being said how sollux views lilith is forever changed. he will no longer be comfortable casually hanging out with her or being alone with her in any context. he knows what she is willing to do, and knows she is very capable. he doesn't care what she's doing, but he does care about making sure it doesn't happen to him or his friends.

honestly, sollux is used to being on top(tm). he is/was a super strong psionic. he's not used to being "Afraid" of things, or of people. however, here everything is different. he doesn't have offensive abilities, and his weapon is limited in ammo and in range. he is not good at physical combat. this of course contributes to his feelings of uselessness here, but it also has let him become a lot more aware of what other people can do to him. he's felt safe so far in nyoi-cho because of the human attitude towards violence (basically, thinking its bad and shouldnt happen). now that he knows there are people here who are willing to forgo that societal expectation he's going to be a lot more careful about where he goes, what he does, and who he talks to.

unfortunately this means although he still thinks of lilith as a cute not terribly bright girl, he'll also think of her as deadly, dangerous, and unpredictable. he won't want to associate with her, he won't want to talk to her, he won't want his friends to be with her. he's basically going to be on high alert whenever she comes up, whether that be her physical presence or simply her involvement in some group or activity. she's going to have to convince him she's made some kind of tremendous personal growth before he feels he can trust her again in anyway, and even then, he will probably just be less vocal with his distrust.

so basically there relationship is going to be messed up, but he will still be amiable enough around her on the mirror network and etc. does that make sense?