The TL;DR CR Meme

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THE TL;DR CR MEME

It's function rambunction let me show you the rules:

1. Post a top level with your character.
2. Others post with their characters under your top level
3. You go on and on about those two characters CR.
4. Post with your character, get the same.

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In a weird way, Pokey was first drawn to Dave because he was familiar and safe.

Pokey had known Dave, briefly, in Mayfield, and Pokey related at least a bit of that to this Dave when he met him. Being obsessive and fixating on things is part of what Pokey did, and even if this was a different Dave, for a moment Dave could also be a reminder of his home. And at first, that's how Pokey thought of him during the first couple of times they talked, because Pokey never expected it to become a big deal or that he'd actually capture Dave's attention in anyway.

The fact that he did was a massive surprise to him.

Since leaving Mayfield, Pokey had had problems with companionship and opening up to other people. As far as he was concerned, all the people he loved and cared about were dead, and he'd failed them and unfairly gotten to keep moving on. Relationships weren't something that just wasn't going to happen, they were something he should try to avoid if he could. He didn't always keep up to this, as he'd had a friend in Teddie from Persona 4 and Kyouko from the game before he got to Cosmos.

But Dave was a weird gamechanger in that because Dave seemed so much like someone Pokey could relate to on a personal level. Dave seemed to get how Pokey thought, and more than that, Dave was cool. Pokey sincerely feels Dave is a legit cool guy, as much as Dave might be putting on airs. And Dave seemed to give a crap about him, for some reason Pokey didn't begin to understand. And because of that, Dave wasn't just some dude to hang out with, but someone worth defending.

Unfortunately, this also meant being overly zealous in protecting Dave.

For as much good as hanging with Dave could do for Pokey, it also brought out a lot of the worst in Pokey's behaviors in relating to people. Because Pokey has at least an idealized idea of Dave in his head that he's thinking of when he's trying to 'help' him, and in part he's not just defending Dave, but feels he HAS to defend Dave to an extreme not because Dave is incapable, but because Pokey clearly should be the one responsible for making sure shit doesn't get to Dave. As much as Pokey has learned about giving a shit about others, he's immensely self-deprecating and feels he's bound to fuck up so he should work double time on helping others out, and Dave is unfortunately the person he does this too the most.

In a lot of ways, this has subconsciously caused a lot of strain on Pokey's part too, where the dude refuses to acknowledge Dave's worse behaviors and personality aspects, but is still clearly affected and annoyed by them. He won't say it, of course, because Pokey feels he's just being a petty dick to a dude who clearly has it all together. Which, unfortunately, kind of exploded during the event this month.

Because, get this, in the heat of the moment Pokey saw Dave's attempt to show him mercy and back off as an insult. In his own way, Pokey interpreted it as Dave not actually taking him seriously not because Dave wasn't trying to kill him per se, but acting like Pokey was full of shit when he said he'd experienced this before. Not only that, but it reminded him of how many people he'd seen die during this shit before. In a weird way, it kind of triggered a shitty flashback and flood of repressed feelings, and he basically unleashed them towards Dave.

Which was inevitable to happen in some way. Pokey genuinely likes Dave, but he's not always honest with Dave, either. As much as he tries to help Dave, he's never opened up on a personal level himself to Dave aside from the time they talked about brothers last November. Pokey won't let himself be real at times with Dave, and so during one time when it really, really have benefitted for him to be real, he fucked it up and just got insanely angry.

And, of course, that means he's fucked this relationship up forever, because now Dave knows what a piece of garbage he is. So it's time to shut his mouth and leave the dude alone, because he's clearly done way more damage than help.