souljammed | Confessions Meme

I'm an AI, a computer created clone of a person. That's not really my confession.

I'm the clone of this terrible, friggin' toolbox of a kid who was deadset on ruining the lives of everyone he knew and went on to become a world destroying monster after he betrayed his only friend to an eldritch horror. Yeah. Pretty bad. That's still not my confession.

My confession is that despite all that I've gone through and how much I've changed, and that I'm happier than I ever was being like him before I guess I started to diverge? Sometimes I wish I could just go back to being that kind of monster. Because it's easier when you can give people a reason to not bother having any faith in you.

--So. That's what you meant, huh?

[ Yikes. As much as she wants to kill everyone in Makai... she didn't actually get a good chance to. She's kind of impressed. ]

It's a lot easier, I'll agree with you there. But, sometimes you need at least a few people to have faith in you, believe it or not.

...Trust me. I know that by now. And it always feels better, when I have people who do.

But at the same time? There's always this little bit of me that wants to be that way again. Because there's power in it. Because it can be fun.

It's really fun, actually! To not care about what others think of you.

Problem being, in some places, you have to keep up appearances, otherwise you'll never be called upon to help out. I'd never get clients if nobody thought I could get things done! I don't think it should be that hard to go back to being like that, if you really wanted to.

As long as you don't destroy this world. [ Not yet. ]

I'm a Darkhunter. That means I kill Darkstalkers-- monsters, demons, werewolves, vampires, et cetera. I do it for the money, for the most part.

...Mm, but I guess the problem's that I'm not in the hunting business right now. It's a little hard, trying to figure out how to transition into this whole Magi deal, but I don't really care much for saving others without getting compensated for it. But more so... I guess, it's hard to get rid of the instinct to kill any monster I come across.

I guess my confession would be... well, I don't want to change, really. I just want to do better at my new job. I'd like to actually have someone trust me. That'd be nice.

If it's any consolation? I trust you even if I probably shouldn't.

But I think if push came to shove you'd do the right thing even without the promise of money.

Well-- there's only one way to find out, isn't there?

Though an few extra bucks wouldn't be bad.

OK so...like I know why I appreciate money. I grew up not having it, then I had it for a few years, then I had to work for it.

But what is it about money that's so important to you exactly?

Not judging, just curious.

It's the easiest way to measure power. Anyone who has a lot of money has a high status, and there's so much you can do with it. It's what makes the world go round, of course!

But really, I don't like poverty, and I don't wanna be poor. That's all.

Well I don't think anyone can argue with that. Money is powerful and being poor sucks.

You would have done great in Panem. We got paid for every tribute we killed in the arena. I wasn't so good at it but people were willing to pay me just to keep trying.

Ah, that sounds like my kind of place! It's a lot more suited for me than a job where I'd get in trouble for killing anybody.

Well...only in the arenas. You wouldn't be allowed weapons outside of the arenas and if you so much as gave the wrong citizen a dirty look you could get in big trouble.

That's the trade, you get to be a kill happy celebrity but no freedom or privacy.

That's not too bad, really. Do you think we really get freedom here?

More freedom then I had there that's for sure.

I don't... really know who I am, or what I am, or anything like that. Sometimes it feels like everything I knew before coming here wasn't actually what... I knew? Like I was watching things through someone else's eyes. And even once I became Lilith, I don't know if I would've stayed Lilith for long.

That's why... I'm really glad I got to come here. I don't wanna die.

Okay... you know, you're still Lilith. I don't know what you think you were back in Makai, but here, you're Lilith.

[ That's. All the advice you're getting. She's not touching that second part. ]

Hmm.

What does being Lilith mean exactly? How would you describe her if you were looking in from the outside such as you claim?

I've been forced to carry a century-old family legacy I never wanted because fate decided I wouldn't have a choice in the matter. I've killed people before they could kill us, traveled halfway across the world, and used my power to tear apart a time-stopping vampire who killed one of my friends and had his subordinate kill another.

My confession isn't that I never wanted this, and it's not that I've killed people. It's not even that my friends are dead because they got involved with my family. My confession is that...I don't really know who I'm supposed to be or what I'm supposed to do anymore. I don't know if 'Noriaki Kakyoin' can really be an individual, or just a carbon copy of my grandfather. If I'm some kind of puppet of destiny, but without an ancestral evil to fight...what comes next?

I once had a tattoo that gave me control over an army of darkness, but it corrupted me and turned me evil. I took over the good guys' base of operations and tried to get my family's worst enemy to teach me dark magic. I nearly hurt uncle Jackie when he tried to stop me.

The real ruler of that evil ninja army thought I might go back to the dark side some day, and sometimes I wonder if he was right. I still mis that power, even though I know it's dangerous.

Well, so long as you learned from your mistake then there's no reason to fear the power's influence.

You just need to strengthen your mind so that the next time you can control it without risking your allies.

Perhaps you can temper your own strength, and one day get to that level.

I accidentally shaved off my nipple.

[That's it. That's his confession.]

[ LAUGHING IN SHOCK ]

You did what?

[N-no...please don't laugh at him.]

I...please don't make me repeat it.

S...Seriously?!

[ Ow. ]

[WHY ARE ALL THE GIRLS SEEING THIS?!]

...N...[oh god he can't take it back now, can he?] Ah...actually, it's just an expression! Don't take things so literally!

[Yes that works.]

What kind of expression is that?! I don't even get what that could stand for!

Four years ago when I was fourteen I was one of the most successful war heroes in my nation. I aided in what would have been mass genocide and my nation would have dominated the world.

However I was too weak, and defeated by my brother and a peasant from the frozen backside of my world.

Those who I had in my closest confidence betrayed me.

Even my father who I idolized was afraid of the monster he had created.

And I've been seeing visions of my mother reflections ever since.

I've lost everything. My friends, my nation, my family and even my mind.

Hmm.

I can share parts of your story, with the exception of my nation. I felt less attached to it once I was free.

You...actually enjoy the feeling of madness?

I never said that. I said I can relate to it.

It is more accurate to say madness and I are closely acquainted, and one is not without the other, sad to say.

Yes, quite sad I'm sure.

What was it that caused you to lose it all?

The death of my family at the age of eight in a fire that left me catatonic. Ten years in an asylum, losing any sort of comfort there and then losing every OTHER sort of comfort when I got out, having to tend after brats reminding me of my ordeals daily.

Least of all, being looked after by the man responsible for all of my strife and not knowing it.

[ Chuckles ]

I'm sorry, that's not funny. But given my status as Princess of the Fire nation, it makes me wonder why we keep running into each other.

Perhaps your fate and flames are just intertwined.

I would hope you took revenge on the man responsible at least?

It might seem that way. I would not be surprised.

I took my revenge, all right. I half wish I'd have seen the mangled mess. A bi morbid, but he had it coming.

Ah there it is.

I knew if we looked hard enough I'd find something I liked about you.

Is it that hard to find something to like? How sad for me.

I've killed like...five adults, and a church full of kids.

I am sorry about the kids...and a couple of the adults.

Not all of the adults, then?

No. Not all of them.

Some of them...

...well with some of them it was self defense.

And one...well she needed to be stopped.

I used to live with a loving, prosperous family and loved going to Wonderland. Then one night a sadistic man crept into my home, raped my sister and set a fire that killed everyone with the exception of myself, and after recovering from my burns I was placed in an asylum for ten years.

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